If anyone has been wondering since I logged of the Internet on late Sunday Night, when I woke up on Monday Morning, neither Jim, Denny or I had Internet. Our router had up and DIED, forcing us to get a new one.

So, I was completely without Internet until now - no email, IM's, Skype, games, Facebook, Twitter, Youtube, Webcam, online video. NOTHING was accessible online at all - leaving me with only TV, my few movies on Hestia's hard drive, and my DVD's to keep me occupied, as well as only my phone for outside communication.

Yeah, I've been going COMPLETELY insane and crazed.

Thank The Trinity for my Unlimited North American Long Distance with Primus, or I would not have lived. Seriously.


Anyway....

Yesterday, Tuesday September 29th, I had a meeting with my temporary Attendant Care Case Manager, Susan, at 11AM. It took almost exactly 2 hours, but that was because in addition to seeing what I need during my requested Extra Attendant Care Hour between 7PM - 9PM, Susan also finished my "new region client evaluation" that Desiree had stared in July, but never finished. It was all really standard things, but as it turned out, it was a good thing Susan did it, because aside from Susan not knowing me and needing everything anyway - half my information dident even seem to be on file.

Man, I hate stiff like that - when people are not thorough with research and information.... But, that may just be my OCD talking, too. Because of the severity of my OCD and depending on the stability of my routines - no matter what they involve, big or small - my brain is much like a computer, and I make sure to take in EVERY detail of what I'm doing, planning, or researching, weeks and sometimes months, before I do it.

In my life, needing as much physical and emotional support as I do, this way of doing things is pretty much ingrained in me too - so I can have a plan of what i want to do, and the order I need to do in, so my Care can go as smoothly and peacefully for me as possible, no matter what kind of Care it is.

Anway, I sat down with Susan on Tuesday, and for those 2 hours, we just talked. She was really patient and nice, and had a soft voice, so it didn't feel like an "evaluation" which was good. She asked what kind of Physical Care / Support I need thoughout the day - which is pretty minimal and standard, when you get right down to it - and I told her about my few lifts / transfers, commode / bathroom needs, helping cleaning / dusting things that I can't reach, help with taking the lids of my pills and tooth past and such, minor dressing, cutting up my food, help brushing my hair when my shoulders hurt and things.

Like I said, very straight forward.

Then we went over all my Physical Health Issues, my medications, and their dosages. She wrote them all down. I'm not going to write all my Physical issues down again, because odds are, if you know me IRL (and some of you do - some more than others, as well, depending on your place in my life), you have seen all of them at some point or another - and most likely they aren't a big deal to you, they are just part of me and my life needs.

For those of you that haven't yet, you've no doubt read about them before or talked them over with me.

Either way, like everything else, my physical aliments are well maintained with a regiment of pills, check ups, and keeping my emotional and mental states as stable and peaceful as possible with stress lessening techniques, sticking to my routines and schedules, and with a wonderfully informed and patient support system.

I also let Susan know that if those guidelines are followed as closely as possible, my emotional and mental states can be kept ALMOST in the normal / healthy range, letting the Attendants attend to my Care with very minimal Storms or changes in my mood and things. She took all this down, along with a list of my Emotional and Mental Issues (again, not putting them here again, for the same reasons above), a list of my meds for them, a basic list of how my routines go, a list of my triggers that can cause Storms and Mood Spikes, one of what helps calm me down, as well as wanting to know who I trust enough and who knows me well enough to help with that.

Of course, Lisa and Jake's names came up, as did a few others.

I also told Susan who has what relationship to me and things like that. That my trip with Jake went incredibly well, that we are planning another one for early / mid next year, and that I get to see Lisa next month in November. Though, I suspect she just let me be more detailed and chatty, because it made me feel better to have someone to talk to, with my loss of Internet on unday Night / Monday Morning having spiked my OCD and Depression badly - she mentioned how I lit up when I talked about them and things, and it was clear I loved them very much and that they loved me, being able to take things in such stride that I don't feel nor seem as "sick" when I'm around them.

She's right, too. With them, Jake and Lisa, and some others, needs or not, I'm just ME. Care or Sidi or whoever by name or title, but me - a normal, happy, loved and needed person and woman. *smiles*

When all was said and done, Susan said she will HOPEFULLY have at least some kind of answer for me about filling my Extra Attendant Care Hour in the evening by the end of this week or next. As well, gave Susan permission to look into getting me help through other Care agencies, if Preferred Health Care / CCAC cannot come up with an attendant willing or able to come to me in the evening.

So, we'll see what happens.

Regardless, I was very satisfied with yesterday's meeting.


The guys and I have also decided to give Primus Internet a 2nd, and final chance. The only reason being that, in the space of 6 days or so, because of a leecher or something, we went over our Rogers Internet Limit. have now paid off the extra charges of said overflow - but until the Primus Modem gets here next week, it means tht the guys and I cannot do any downloading, streaming, webcam or Skype, Youtube or any of my games like Second Life.

Until the Primus modem gets here next week, all I can do is use my Internet Browser stuff (LJ, Facebook, Myspace, Twitter and such), my email, and my Instant Messengers.

PRAY that Primus comes through with their Internet Services this time, because if they don't, the guys and I are literally SCREWED!!